Note: I wrote this piece a few weeks ago, then life happened. It’s the first in a 3-part series. I had this breakthrough the other day. It’s such a small thing, but sometimes these small things feel HUGE.
I used to strive for balance all of the time. It was a constant goal and a constant challenge. It took work. And I often felt like I wasn’t succeeding. Over the last few years I’ve come more and more to like the idea of finding my center. For me, balance has become too linear. I envision being on a tightrope, or sometimes, a knife’s edge. I can only move forward or backwards. There’s not much room for play there, and so much opportunity for falling off!
But being centered. Connecting with my heart, with the universe, with whatever concepts I choose, gives me an infinite number of directions to move.
As the mother of a 4 month old, life has changed drastically in the past few months. I have this whole new role in life, caring for this precious little person who needs so much. And still I have all of the other roles I play. Friend, partner, artist, entrepreneur, daughter, sister, the list goes on.
Around new years, I realized what I wanted was fluidity. The fluidity of moving from my mother persona to my artist self to the lover to the friend. So I’m saving the word ‘balance’ for yoga class and am instead envisioning all of these aspects of myself, or perhaps, all of the ways that I am of service in this life, floating around my central core.
Now, to move from one aspect to another, all I need do is step into my center, take a few heart centering breaths, and step into whatever aspect will best serve me and those around me at the time.